Every moment we are experiencing - good, bad or otherwise indifferent - will ultimately pass and we will be confronted with the next event and its subsequent emotion to absorb.
I recently had an outstanding day (February 26 to be exact) - - one of those days where everything seems sanctioned by a benevolent, higher order and falls perfectly into place. I spent this day and the weekend that followed feeling light and inflated; my feet floating inches above the earth with a dreamy smile on my face.
As is often the case, however, karma wanted to ensure I was kept in good balance and so this blissful day was followed by a really difficult one – a day when I felt as if everything around me was closing in and threatening to collapse. A day I felt I couldn’t breathe.
I am certainly aware of others who struggle and juggle more – those whose pain is far greater than I can possibly conceive and yet “bad days” are all fairly subjective. Considering someone else’s suffering might, on occasion, put your own in perspective but it doesn’t really negate the fact that one of your days has gone to complete and utter shit.
During my bad day – a day when I reflected on the happiness of February 26 as if it were a far and distant memory rather than a mere 72 hours later - I felt hopeless, foul, irritated and overwhelmed. I suspected I looked as much, too, and so I snapped a photo of myself at a stop light in an effort to capture the emotion I was wearing and projecting to the world – an act of honesty I hoped would snap me out of it or at least encourage me to “fake it ‘til I make it.”
Instead, what I captured was this overlapping beam of sun making its way across my sad and dour expression:
While I do believe that - regardless of what hardship we are enduring - there is always something brighter waiting for the opportunity to make its entrance, it occurred to me that the real truth of this shot is that fortune and misfortune will ebb and flow in our lives, bringing with them the sense of being blessed and damned. Like every moment, each will most certainly pass but it is the often overlooked union of the two - the invisible connector bestowing its wise gifts - that makes our lives and our moments that much more meaningful.
I am grateful for both.

6 comments:
well that is very interesting, i'd never thought of that joining of the two like that...something to think on today...
I suppose you can't give details? sorry for being nosey..
This sums up exactly what you're saying too.. very interesting stuff..
http://www.thework.com/athousandnamesforjoy/index.asp
take care!
Heather - I think it's the inbetween that is the greatest gift because we become acutely aware that we not only can't have one without the other but we shouldn't even want it that way; the bitter makes the sweet sweeter and the sweet makes the bitter bearable.
Audrey - I don't find your question nosey and appreciate your interest but felt the details were totally irrelevant. Hope that makes sense.
What a lovely thought. I have been very aware of the 'this too shall pass' nature of life, both in the good and in the bad...aware of the balance of the two, even, but not really acutely aware of the connectedness of them.
What's always jarring to me is when I'm having one of these days, either amazing or horrid, ones where I remember the date, you know?, and I find out that someone else had the opposite. Like finding out a friend's birthday is the same as the day my mom died. And that she had a great party with friends and laughter, while I was in utter shock.
Its interesting that in your moment of "bad", there was a ray of light - literally - that you couldn't see until you looked at it all from a different perspective. Wow, hows that for a metaphor? Kinda a profound thought though.
Sometimes we just need to step back.
Sorry you had a bad day.
Hope everything gets better.
Barb
wow.
the sun is smart.
that was going to be a dreadful photo.
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